Tuesday, November 20, 2007



I've been scrapbooking like a mad woman for the last few weeks but none of those pages are ones that I can post on my blog. I really don't like posting without a picture or scrapbook page, so I figured I would post a sketch that I intend to turn into a page sometime soon! Feel free to use it and if you do let me know...I want to see it! And, if you like doing the whole sketch thing, let me know. I've got books full of them that I can share with you all! Maybe I could have a sketch day once a week.

So this last weekend was a blur. It went by way too fast! I did get a lot of projects done and that's a great feeling. I also managed to squeeze in some cleaning and lots of family time. It was a great balance of everything! If I could just learn to manage my time better all the time...

For the last two Thanksgivings I can always tell when the day is getting close. My mood changes a lot. I don't notice it at first but eventually I realize why it is that I get so moody and emotional. It is the anniversary of my dad's death. When Thanksgiving rolls around and on the drive to my Grandpa Arnall's house that evening I still for a split second think, "Man, I haven't seen Dad in such a long time. It will be great to see him." I do this a lot actually. I haven't even changed my cell phone list so when anyone calls me from our family's lumber company it still pops up as 'Dad'. For a second I get excited that he called. I know that I need to change it because the sadness that follows when I figure out that it isn't him is hard. I guess I just feel like if I erase the name on the number I'm erasing him. I know, that sounds so stupid. I guess we all deal with death in silly and different ways.

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving. I know I plan on eating as much as possible. That may be one good thing about divorced families...you get more turkey! I think we are hitting three different dinners this year! I'll probably gain way too much weight but at least I can use the "eating for two" thing as a great excuse for that extra large piece of pumpkin pie!

9 comments:

joscelyne cutchens said...

{{{HUGS}}}} Happy Thanksgiving! I will definitely give a try to your sketch!

the scrappy chic said...

Love your sketch! I hope you manage to have a nice holiday, despite the terrible memory it brings for you. Lots of thoughts coming your way!!!

Latrice said...

You could never erase your dad. You will think about him no matter what. It's hard, but maybe the food will make feel a little better. Even though your dad isn't with you, you have this new life that will bring you great joy!! Have a great thanksgiving and eat some for me.

Erica Hettwer said...

Hello, my dear!!! Please do a sketch day once a week or so! (You're pregnant so you don't have to commit to anything! LOL!) I LOVE your LO's!!! :D

Having a parent die at any time is hard and having it happen on or around a holiday almost makes it worse. But, at least you'll be around others who loved him and will remember him on that day. I hope that helps!

Erica
~melegs
:D

Holly said...

Totally understandable. It would be very difficult for me to delete the cell # as well. Not sure I could. I do hope you have a wonderful time with your family over the long Thanksgiving weekend!

Samantha said...

I'm sorry to hear you're missing your dad. {{{HUGS}}} This year I'll be missing my grandma who passed away in May :( I feel your sadness and pain.

I do hope you enjoy a happy Thanksgiving! Also, I do like using sketches, so I think posting more would be a good idea :)

Kodi Logan said...

Sorry this is such a hard holiday for you. It's tough when dads aren't around anymore!

How about some baby news! Did you get a doctor? When is this baby due? Are you going to find out the sex?

The Iskras said...

{{{hugs}}}I love the sketch and would love a sketch a week. That would be great. As soon as I can get cleaned up in here Ill have to put that sketch to use. I will let you know how the page turns out!! :) Have the best turkey day you can!!!

Hayley
CKMB

Stefanie said...

I would also love a sketch a week. For 10 years Christmas was really tough time for me as my baby daughter died on Christmas Eve and I would get depressed when I saw the decorations hit the stores. Thankfully I have been healed from the pain and the memories remain.