It always takes me a day or two to figure it out. I'm moody, cry at the drop of a hat, and just a little off. Then I will realize, Father's Day is nearing and since November 2005, honestly, I haven't really liked that day. It's a big fat reminder that I won't be spending the day with my dad. I do this every time Father's Day rolls around.
I'm fine once I figure out what it is that changes my mood so much and the day that is creeping closer and closer. I can't sit there and dwell on the fact that my dad isn't here. I may not want to accept it and move on but really you don't get a choice like that. It's accept it or live a miserable life being upset about something you can't change. When I realize that it's Father's Day and my lack of a father is making me upset I do my best to go in a positive direction with my thoughts. Instead of being upset about the fact that he isn't here, I try to remember that I should be happy of the 24 Father's Days that I did get to spend with him. And I am.
I also have to remind myself that I need to make sure that Mike has a fantastic Father's Day. I have to admit the best part of Father's Day is helping the boys with a gift for their dad. Every year we make something for him and this year we kicked it up a notch and made two.
The first is a layout that I made and the boys came up with the ten things they love the most about their dad for the journaling.
Drew did most of the speaking and Jackson just repeated what he said.
The second gift we made was a recordable book called Daddy & Me that Drew found at a store. This was hilarious. The book is full of questions that kids answer about their dad. Drew did an excellent job of answering the questions. Jackson was a little too focused on the buttons that you push for recording. Basically it would go like this...
Me: Where do you like to go with Dad on a Saturday?
Drew: We go to the park and it is so much fun and I like it. We go down the slide and I like scream because it's a lot of fun?
Jackson: Push the button.
Me: Would you and Dad have more fun on a boat, a dogsled, or a spaceship?
Drew: Spaceship! We would go to the moon, Saturn, Mars, and um...Jupiter.
Jackson: Let me push the button!
Me: Do you want to go with Dad in a spaceship?
Jackson: No. I wanna push the button.
Me: If you and Dad were superheros, what powers would you have?
Drew: Fire power!
Jackson: Push it. Push it to talking. Push the button.
Me: If you and your Dad were inventors, what would your first invention be?
Drew: A banana flying thing!
Me: What about you Jackson? What would you make with Daddy?
Jackson: Push the BUTTON!!
Me: Drew, what would you do with your invention?
Drew: I would make a control and control it.
Me: Like a remote controlled banana?
Drew: Yup. That flies.
At one point, when I asked Jackson, "If Dad won a gold medal for doing something incredible, what would it be?", he threw me for a loop. He didn't say "push the button!" Nope. He instead said, "Pooping!" It was all down hill from there. The boys were obsessed with putting the word poop in their answers and Mike ended up with a book half full of bathroom humor followed by hysterical giggling.
It was hilarious and Mike laughed just as hard as the boys did.