"I will never say that anything good came out of my dad's death. Ever. Because I can't bring myself to utter those words. Because I would so much rather have him here. Because I miss him. I will however say that I can't believe how much of Dad, I see in my Grandpa. The goofy personality, the way he is with Drew and Jackson, the light in his eyes when he's around family, the way he tries to take care of us. I almost feel like I'd been asleep for years and finally woke up to see this wonderful person for what he really is. A person that I am lucky to have in my life. I feel horrible that for so long I accepted a relationship that consisted of holiday dinners and mini-visits. That quickly changed. I love hearing Drew giggle at his silly "Grandpa Arnall dollar to finger trick." I love that he reminds me so much of my dad. I love that we have a closer relationship. I'm so glad that I see it now."