Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I see it now.

Sometimes when we lose, we gain at the same time. Sometimes it takes a big change to open your eyes to something in someone you might not have noticed before. Sometimes you find a new relationship with someone you've known your whole life.


"I will never say that anything good came out of my dad's death. Ever. Because I can't bring myself to utter those words. Because I would so much rather have him here. Because I miss him. I will however say that I can't believe how much of Dad, I see in my Grandpa. The goofy personality, the way he is with Drew and Jackson, the light in his eyes when he's around family, the way he tries to take care of us. I almost feel like I'd been asleep for years and finally woke up to see this wonderful person for what he really is. A person that I am lucky to have in my life. I feel horrible that for so long I accepted a relationship that consisted of holiday dinners and mini-visits. That quickly changed. I love hearing Drew giggle at his silly "Grandpa Arnall dollar to finger trick." I love that he reminds me so much of my dad. I love that we have a closer relationship. I'm so glad that I see it now."

6 comments:

Amanda said...

This is beautiful. Simply beautiful. Thanks for sharing!

Allison Davis said...

Thank you Amanda! :)

Gloria Hill said...

It's always a blessing when we awaken to this reality while there's still time to live in the midst of it (rather that reflect on it after the fact). Thank you for the lovely reminder to have eyes to see our blessings. Life often becomes too intense and we forget.

Scrapbook Generation said...

Beautiful writing. And I'm glad that Grandpa Arnall can help fill the void for Drew and Jackson left by your dad's death. -- MOM

dawn said...

This really is a heartwarming layout. My grandma passed before my children were born so I have no pictures of them with her. I think by looking at your layout I will make one with pictures of her and I doing special things or one of her and a journaling spot listing all the things I miss about her that were special. Thanks for a good idea and for reminding me that even when a loved one isn't here we still need to tell their story.

lucinda said...

I have many fond memories of your dad and Grandpa. They are both special people.